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Exhaustion

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It's 11:25pm as I begin to write this. We are all just getting to bed. Gavin spending the night at Grandma W's. Rob is finishing some work with Elliott Richard's "help" before they head off to bed. I just climbed into bed with a very fussy Emmett John a few minutes ago.

Our day has consisted of 2 different doctors appointments, 3 different medical tests, and 8 hours total for it all.

Gavin had an appointment at 1:00pm with Dr. R, his psychiatrist. That appointment lasted 2 1/2 hours. It included 1 major meltdown, a few manipulations, a lot of conversation and planning. In the end, it was once again determined that Gavin is an especially difficult case and no one truly knows what to do to help him. Or us. However, rather than do nothing (except to slowly go insane) we are going to cut his dose of Abilify (again) by more than half and add a new medication on a temporary basis to try and "reset" his anxiety level. I pray to God it works. We can't keep living in a war zone.

By the time we got out of Dr. R's office it was 3:00pm. Emmett John's 1 month/jaundice follow-up appointment was at 4:00pm, which meant we didn't have time to get home and drop Rob and Gavin off and then for Emmett John and I to get back in time. So we grabbed a bite to eat to kill some time.

Emmett's appointment was at 4:00pm. We didn't get back to the exam room until about 4:30pm. The nurse measured Emmett and then we weighed him. He grew another 1/4 inch in two weeks. He's now 21.5 inches long. His weight gain is what kills me! Mr. Emmett John now weighs 8lb 13.5oz. Meaning he gained a pound and a half in 2 weeks!!!!! Not bad for an exclusively breastfed baby. (This is the point where my cousin Sam would tell me I don't make milk. I make butter. lol)

When Dr. H came in to chat and examine Emmett we mentioned Emmett's fussiness and clingy behavior since Saturday/Sunday. I honestly didn't think too much of it but we figured it was worth mentioning. He asked a few dozen questions and said it's most likely colic. Possibly some minor reflux but probably colic. Then while we was examining Emmett he noticed that he had pooped so to be sure he did a fecal hemioccult test (testing for blood in his stool). The test was ever so slightly positive. This led to two more of the same test. One inconclusive. One negative. So Dr. H sent Emmett for a CBC blood draw to be sure. The CBC was normal except his red bloodcell count was low. We sat and talked over everything with Dr. H for a while and in the end we decided that he would send Emmett John for an abdominal x-ray just to be sure that there wasn't something we were missing. By this time it was 6:00pm and we'd been in doctors appointments for 5 hours. So we left Dr. H's office and made a quick stop at Rob's parents' house so I could nurse Emmett. Then it was off to the hospital for the x-ray.

The x-ray went really quick and easy. Then we waited while the radiologist read it and paged Dr. H. Who then called us back at the hospital. Everything was perfect! He said it's most likely colic but he wants us to give him 1/4 teaspoon of Maalox or Mylanta every 6-8 hours when he's fussy to see if it helps. If that helps, then it's likely some mild reflux and we can get him a prescription to help. He said that it could also be a milk sensitivity and just to cover all of our bases, he wants me cut all of the main milk products out of my diet. No more milk, cheese, yogurt, ice cream etc. If the no milk thing helps but doesn't fix it, I'll have to decide if I want to cut all milk and soy products out or switch to formula. (Sound familiar, Sammers?) But for now at least we have a game plan.

All told, we spent 8 hours either at doctors' appointments or in the hospital. By the time I started this blog at 11:25pm, I was absolutely exhausted. In fact, I'm only finishing it now because Emmett decided it would be fun to hang out and check out the night time scenery in between bouts of fussing and screaming in my ear.

I love being a mom. ;)

4 weeks old...almost 1 month

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Emmett John is 4 weeks old today. He will officially be 1 month old on Saturday, July 26th. Here are the things I've noticed over the past week...

  • He is awake for about a half hour 2-3 times a day.
  • He's been very fussy and clingy over the past few days. Only wanting Mommy most of the time.
  • We discovered the joys of the Boppy pillow (pictures coming soon). He will chill in it for maybe 10 mintues each time he is awake just checking out the scenery and enjoying the view.
  • He gets a super concerned look on his face whenever he gets the hiccups.
  • He isn't quite sure about this thing called "Brotherly Love" from Elliott Richard. (see picture in previous post)
  • He has officially graduated to Size 1 diapers and is quickly out-growing his Newborn sized clothes!
  • He has the softest little hands and feet. I am just in love with them.
  • He had his first official bath (completely submerged and everything)!
  • Big noises don't seem to bother him very much (i.e. Gavin's fits) for the most part but tiny little noises make him jump out of his skin.

Crazy Dreams

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This whole pregnancy thing is all starting to come back to me now, especially the crazy dreams part. A few days before I found out I was pregnant I had this dream where I was telling everyone I was pregnant. Y'all laughed at me, for the record. Well then I went about my business in my dream but there was something off. I was in the Mall, the way it looked 10-15 years ago before it became a terrifying place to shop, with my Mom, aunts and cousin Sam. I kept running into people from high school asking me to help plan my 10 year high school reunion, which I will miss now in order to give birth to the new baby-to-be. The whole time I was shopping, talking, planning etc I was carrying this massive ball of dough. I had stop every few minutes to knead the dough and whatnot.

It's funny how the subconscience tells us what we need to know. Like "Hey you! You're busy baking!" lol

Then last night I had this horrible dream where Rob and I kept finding Elliott Richard dead. No one knew how or why. And there wasn't anything we could do to stop this from happening. It was absolutely terrifying.

I had similar dreams the whole time I was pregnant with Elliott Richard. I had left him here. Driven off with him in the carrier on top of the car. I had left the house to go some where only to get there and learn I forgot him at home. I had more dreams about miscarriages where everyone said I was crazy and laughed at me than I could count.

With Gavin, there were dreams about what a cute little girl he was. (Apparently my subconscience is more accurate this time around.) He always had a head full of dark, almost black, ringlets and he was wearing a navy blue and marroon plaid dress. I also had dreams about nursing him. I would be nursing him in my dream and it would seem so real. When I would wake up to find my bed empty and void of a baby to nurse, I would sob.

With the dreams already starting, I'm afraid to think of where they are going to end up over the next 9 months. Oy!

Fly By...

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We've got doubling! :) *does a happy dance* My HCG level is now 555.4! WOO WHO!

Here We Are, On the Pregnancy Front...

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Part of me is absolutely paranoid that something is going to go wrong. I talked to the nurse in Dr. D's office yesterday and she congratulated me. :) Then she sent me for blood work. I have to have my HCG and hormone levels checked yesterday, tomorrow and then once a week until they reach 7,000. At that point I will have my first ultrasound to make sure all is well. I'm waiting to hear back about what my levels were yesterday. I'm terrified they are going to call me and tell me that I was wrong, both sticks were wrong and I'm not actually pregnant. Yes, I'm feeling a little anxious right now. ;) lol

I feel like crap. Part of it is this stupid cold. The other part is pregnancy related stuff. NOTHING sounds good to eat. And I mean nothing. Rob could offer to go anywhere and buy me fast food or anything I want and I wouldn't have anything to order because it all sounds horrible. I'm exhausted and drinking my weight in fluids. Other than that I'm doing pretty good today. :)

We told Gavin the other day that I'm going to have another baby. He said he's happy for us so long as the baby is a girl. (Hopop-0[ <--Elliott Richard says Hi! lol) He won't say why but he does NOT want another brother. He did tell me yesterday on the way to the pediatrician's office that he will still be happy if he has another brother but he REALLY wants a sister. I told him what I've been telling everyone else, "You'll have to put your request in with God because I have no control over the situation." That of course led to a discussion of "Do you really believe that God has control over that, Mom?" I just love theological discussions with my 7 and a 1/2 year old. lol

Elliott Richard really doesn't seem to mind that Mommy is pregnant again. Although I think he'll change his tune when he isn't getting all the attention he's used to. lol

I just heard from the OB's office. My HCG level was 195 and my progesterone was 41.1. She said both are really good and my HCG should double by tomorrow. I have my due date wrong though because at 6 weeks the HCG level should be between 1,000 and 56,000. My HCG level puts me at 4 or 5 weeks, which would make my due date more like July 24th. So now we wait...

Wow...Didn't See This One Coming...

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So after many sticks it would appear that in July I will be busy having another baby. *waits for stunned silence* Rob and I just found out last night. I'm waiting to hear from my OB. We're excited although completely shocked. I'm still trying to process the whole situation.

Ah...true love...

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